I've been antsy for the last few days. Not really surprising, since I've done no real exercise in the last year. I've been biking, running, swimming and hitting&kicking the air when I felt like it, but nothing like regular training.
I see this as one of the reasons I'm so exhausted lately (it might not sound logic, but believe me, it does make sense).
This morning I woke up with an urge to do gymnastics. This is definitely silly.
I was never good at gymnastics - apart from being built like a tank, I have all the grace of a rhino, which is not at all conductive to presenting an exercise - but I've always had fun. (I practiced once a week for nearly 18 years, starting when I was 2 1/2). I wasn't too bad at learning all the skills we could safely do in our gym (which were really just the basics). Mainly because I refused to let myself be afraid of anything even after I'd hurt myself (I've always been stubborn).
I cannot make it look good.
And right now I still want to do cartwheels and rolls on the balance beam, flip over the vault, do some shoulder-stands/rolls on the parallel bars (What? So it's only used in men's competition, why should I care?), rotate around the uneven bars and even just look silly on the floor (not that I don't look silly doing the other stuff too, but on the floor, it's always been the worst).[And yes, I put this paragraph here, so I had a reason to look up all those terms in English. I'm procrastinating what else am I supposed to do?]
This is bad, because there is no way to do this stuff anywhere but in a properly equipped gym. And I doubt I can find one that will just let me use the stuff for a few hours for fun.
I take this as a sign that I need to start training regularly again. No matter what, just regular exercise. Until I know if I'll be staying here after the exams, it's probably of no use to find a taekwon-do class again, but I should manage some hyong (or something like it) at least twice a week.
And when I'm next visiting my parents, I'm going to check in on C. during one of the trampoline courses and ask if I can use the floor while they are busy. Should be a good test if I'm finally over that ridiculous crush as well.